девушки, весна, весна, а молодость пропала...

[avrelia]

I am still there.

Feeling that I fail at education of my kids. And organizing my life. And doing anything useful.

I am pretty much ok, technically. And not ok, actually.

At least the weather, it seems, moving into dry and sunny Californian "most of the year", and I am glad of it. I mean, I love rains. And I love rains in California even more. But right now,with everyone stuck in the apartment, rain and hail felt like such a mockery. March has the worst weather in any climate I ever lived. At least I don't expect anything good from February, you know?


Finished Killjoys.

Unexpected realization: it's The Good Place IN SPACE!!!

Comments

[eglantiere]

::hugs::

despite what the internet says, right now is a really hard time to Organize Everything Correctly! because we're processing a huuuuuuuuuge input of traumatic information at once, and it's big, and it's unrelenting, and all our usual routines are in disarray, and nobody has time or space to process. if possible, give yourself time and space to just readjust to the new normal before you berate yourself for not doing it ~awesomely? it's a task enough to just, like, learn to breathe anew right now.

[avrelia]

Thank you. I feel like I am flailing madly at the same time as I understand that I am flailing madly. I read the number of articles that I am not supposed to be a perfect teacher for my kids right now, but then I still feel distressed that I am failing at kids education (I know that I am not, but I still feel it) MY mind in a big mess, and repeating that we still have it better than many doesn't help much.

[eglantiere]

your brain basically keeps re-invoking the fight-or-flight response and then not getting any release because the situation doesn't change, it keeps ramping up. hence the stress and the flail and basically cortisone drowning. it's hard as hell.

[molly_may]

:hugs: I think the best any of us can do right now is just try to keep ourselves and our families as safe and sane as possible. I'm not a parent, but I did see this article go around on Twitter a few days ago, and it seems realistic about the whole homeschooling thing https://slate.com/human-interest/2020/03/you-are-not-your-childs-teacher-quarantine-education.html

Unexpected realization: it's The Good Place IN SPACE

I probably need to watch this show!

[avrelia]

Killjoys are a lot of fun, and the best part of it - it has a very good, planned ahead ending, the character arcs make sense, and the story has time to naturally develop while still having twists and turns.