the vagaries of sleep

[avrelia]

The thing I mostly want these days? Sleep. I remember how everyone was asking about my sleep in the first days after D's birth, when I slept like a baby - literally, though, of course less. I slept when D slept and I was fine, even though waking up several times a night was unpleasant. The thing is, I didn't feel the sleep deprivation at all for the first months.

Now I am a mother of toddler, and no one cares how I sleep. And I want to sleep all the freaking time. D. wakes up at 6-6:30, and I am do not - I get up with him without waking up. Mind you, my work day used to start from 8 am, so I had to wake up get up at 6-30 am every day for several years, and it wasn't overly taxing, though I didn't like it much (I liked finishing by 5, so I accepted the trade-off).

Now, I lead seemingly relaxing life that drives me nuts, and I am always wanting to sleep.

Saturday night (morning? it was 3 am) P and I were woken up by the fire alarm going in the building, asking us to evacuate. We checked, there was no fire or smoke, so we decided that it will go away and not worth waking up D and spending the night on the parking lot. the alarm stopped eventually and we went back to sleep.

this morning it turned there was another alarm this night and I didn't hear it AT ALL. Even though I, in fact hear D, every time he mumbles something in his sleep.

It was pretty scary to lie waiting for the fire alarm to stop, calculating whether it is for real and we should be running out, but waking up and realizing that I slept through fire alarm - it is actually even scarier....