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avreliaWell, once again, I keep meaning to write stuff and never quite do. The inability to write anything meaningful, whether it is post here and there, fanfic, or original stories I am struggling with is something that’s been plaguing me this year – I mean 2021.
We are fine. Kids started going to school in the end of March, which I hoped would make my life easier. It did, but only a little bit. Because it is still less than three hours, and not every day, and I am a mess, anyway, so two hours I don’t have to make sure kids are studying don’t give me much.
I can’t focus on anything. It is a horrible feeling, that time is running away from me, and I have to do something, and I can’t decide what should I do exactly. I mean, I still cook, etc, but I have no idea how people even manage more than everyday chores anymore.
Even reading is slow and brings me less joy. Too many books I want to read and can’t get to weight on me.
On the good side of things: Covid vaccine became slowly available in California for general population over April, and while in the beginning it was only nominally available (you were eligible, but it was impossible to schedule an appointment in a convenient time and place), but I did get my first shot ten days ago. Now looking forward to the second one, together with all the side effects.
On the other good things: we got pets! Back in November we got a parakeet, and my youngest named him Grisha. Because it is normal Russian name for a boy, you know? Even though I am not sure where my son got it from – he doesn’t know anyone with that name.
And then in January we got a bunny for my oldest, and he named her Sonia. Now my FB feed is mostly about her, because she is that adorable.
I guess I’ll need a separate post for pets. Also for books and tv. And fandom-y stuff. And other stuff
We are fine. Kids started going to school in the end of March, which I hoped would make my life easier. It did, but only a little bit. Because it is still less than three hours, and not every day, and I am a mess, anyway, so two hours I don’t have to make sure kids are studying don’t give me much.
I can’t focus on anything. It is a horrible feeling, that time is running away from me, and I have to do something, and I can’t decide what should I do exactly. I mean, I still cook, etc, but I have no idea how people even manage more than everyday chores anymore.
Even reading is slow and brings me less joy. Too many books I want to read and can’t get to weight on me.
On the good side of things: Covid vaccine became slowly available in California for general population over April, and while in the beginning it was only nominally available (you were eligible, but it was impossible to schedule an appointment in a convenient time and place), but I did get my first shot ten days ago. Now looking forward to the second one, together with all the side effects.
On the other good things: we got pets! Back in November we got a parakeet, and my youngest named him Grisha. Because it is normal Russian name for a boy, you know? Even though I am not sure where my son got it from – he doesn’t know anyone with that name.
And then in January we got a bunny for my oldest, and he named her Sonia. Now my FB feed is mostly about her, because she is that adorable.
I guess I’ll need a separate post for pets. Also for books and tv. And fandom-y stuff. And other stuff
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Date: 2021-05-16 05:52 pm (UTC)I have literally been writing daily posts for, um, 400+ days, and I feel the same...
Kids started going to school in the end of March, which I hoped would make my life easier. It did, but only a little bit. Because it is still less than three hours, and not every day, and I am a mess, anyway, so two hours I don’t have to make sure kids are studying don’t give me much.
That is so strange to me. My youngest has either been completely at home, or in school, depending on lockdowns & quarantines etc. I hear you on not having enough time for anything in such a short space. Hope their hours improve!
I can’t focus on anything. It is a horrible feeling, that time is running away from me, and I have to do something, and I can’t decide what should I do exactly.
I literally posted a link to an article about this. It seems to be a lockdown thing? Human brains hate being idle and stuck in a monotonous loop.
Although hurrah for good things, and looking forward to a pet post. :)
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Date: 2021-05-18 04:27 pm (UTC)I had this problem before, but I could pull myself together and focus eventually, now it's just worse, exacerbated by the lockdown and all the worries that accompany it.
Feeling so tired despite doing so little
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Date: 2021-05-26 11:42 am (UTC)Yeah. Here's to hoping things get better in the summer!
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Date: 2021-05-27 11:44 pm (UTC)