I forgot what I meant to write, so I write nonsense

I am feel a certain sadness from time to time about the fact that I cannot transfer my thoughts directly to paper or to electronic medium. But then you would be amazed at how terribly chaotic and disorganized my thoughts are, and what silly nonsense I spend my time thinking about, and you would be disappointed. Yes, you would. Or, at least you would roll your eyes, and it would look very strange.