I know how you feel about studying English. Actually this reminds me how I often wish I could go back and start over, beginning with the basic building blocks. I started studying English in 2nd grade and then came to the US at the end of 8th grade. After that, it was learning by immersion and I sometimes felt jealous of my left-behind classmates who did it the formal way. I may know more idioms and etc, but they have a better feeling of how the two languages relate to each other. And I don't want to lose Russian. Yet every time I pick up my Russian 'spravochnik', I feel guilty about not doing something with an English usage/style guide and vice versa. I still aspire to learn a third language someday, but I'm afraid to compromise the other two. Plus, I have this (perhaps silly) idea that it would be easier/more beneficial to study another language from the Russian perspective. Argh.