avrelia: (agent Dunham)
BiVS is losing to Firefly on io9's March Madness poll. I love Firefly as much as the next person, but it feels wrong.
Still, I voted.
And when I think about all me favourite Whedon's heroes - they would have voted for BtVS, too.

Don't you ever get tired of fights you know you're going to win?
avrelia: (Brain - SB)
I feel like I have to say something about Buffy reboot news, if only to keep the topic alive. And here is the thing – I don't care. My most vivid reaction was massive eyeroll and shrugs. I don't know why the world right now needs to reboot a movie about a girl named Buffy who slays vampires, but it's not that I am going to run to the movie theater to find out.

I haven't even watched the forst movie, after all. What for? The thing I fell in love with was the series created by Joss Whedon and starred Sarah Michele Gellar, all seven seasons of it. No one can take it away from me, as no one can come and take my DVDs from me (or, they can if they threaten me properly, but I just buy another copy). I managed to disregard the whole comic season 8th, I can disregard anything I want. Behold my awesome powers!!!

What really bugs me in all this, however, is that we live in age of constant reboots. The original is still here, still fresh, and we are getting another one – bigger and shinier. I don't believe we are out original ideas, but people with money don't trust them, so we are getting reboots, and sequels, and prequels and then reboots again. So tired!
avrelia: (SB through ages)
My Buffy rewatch doesn't work because of the total absence of time for it. When I do occasionally have some, I watch a random episode just to remind myself again how much I love it. The random episode I watched last week was Smashed, and I enjoyed it a lot.

In case you don't know - or forgot - what it is about, I uploaded some screencaps:

The story starts when Buffy expresses her wish to have a pony to random people.more about ponies )
avrelia: (SB through ages)
I guess I also cannot name 10 couples I shipped with passion.

I haven't watched much TV in the past five years, and even the shows I did watch and enjoyed left me lukewarm at best. Maybe it's me, maybe it's them, but here it is. I watched quite a lot of TV in the nineties, but but now I hardly remember enough passion for ten ships...

Anyway, here is my list
1) Buffy/Spike. Right from the beginning of my being a fan of the show (which was a rerun of Intervention already in 2002), I loved them - as a couple and as separate people. I still love them - the fire and need to read fanfiction are gone, but the warmth stays with me. Deep in mind they met again, and live and fight together for years now. ;)
2)Scully/Mulder. Well, the first time I saw them - mid-nineties, back in Russia, in bad pirated copy on some unknown cable channel - I had no idea what I was watching, and who they are, but I shipped them after the first ten minutes. They just belonged together.


I thought that I wouldn't be able to put anything close to them, but I remembered a cute British series I used to enjoy - Dempsey & Makepeace http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0088503/ It was a kind of buddy cop series, if I understand the genre: she was a British policewoman, he was an American cop, and sparks were so strong, that actors actually got married (according to IMDB).

I am sure that there was something else, but since I cannot remember anything, I evidently didn't ship very passionately.


Among the ships I dislike I don't have many passionate hatreds either.

I don't like Buffy/Angel after season 2. It's not that I think they were good for each other before, but I like the story. After that the story got boring and annoying, and the insistence that their love is the truest love of all was made me question their sanity. I mean I understand why Buffy clang to her love for Angel. I even can understand Angel's feelings. I don't understand what was romantic about it.

Other Buffyverse couples - I just don't care that much about them. They were, then they weren't - okay, whatever. I like the characters, but don't care much about couple-ness.

AtS - the romantic couples are so screwed over there, that it is impossible to ship for me. Ok, Angel/Darla are great, but it's hard to ship them either - I don't really hope that they resolve their difficulties, silly kids, and live happily ever after.

Fred/Wes is the one that annoy me the most. Not because they were wrong for each (they were wrong), not because they were infuriating on-screen (they were, but too short time), but because they never really got a chance to explore how bad are they for each other. It was all about Wesley's pain: he loved the girl, he lost the girl, but it was never addressed that the girl was different from a shining paragon he loved.

Come to think, Gunn/Gwen and Wes/Virginia were fine, but too short-lived to feel anything about them.
avrelia: (Look)
Happy belated birthday to [livejournal.com profile] jonesiexxx! I tried to send greetings on Sunday via thoughts, but not sure whether they reached you - mostly all my thoughts eventually turn to the baby...

Now, my Top Fives - I am posting what I have now, soon (hopefully) to be completed.

For [livejournal.com profile] swsa: Top 5 Buffy quotes )
For [livejournal.com profile] swsa: Top 5 AtS episodes )

If you feel like suggesting more Top Fives - go ahead. Give me something to post about. ;)
avrelia: (The Rock)
Apparently there was a More Joy Day last week in LJ-landia, and I missed on the account of us all having a flu. That's some serious joy, man... Anyway, we are all better, and I am even 2 kilos lighter, which is good. Tired though, but, things are working out. I need to make that "state of me" post some day.

So, now for the joy.
the most joy, of course, is the baby: )

The other thing is the new YouTube series I watch. About a game I play - MMOrg World of Warcraft. It's not named there, but those who know, recognize it easily - as well as we recognize ourselves in the characters there. Fun in Dysfunctional. Where is the world collision? in the creator - I am sure you will recognize her - it's The Potential Slayer Vi, or, as she is better known, Felicia Day, who is a gamer herself. ;)

So, welcome to my other world:

The Guild - Episode 1: Wake-Up Call

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avrelia: (Smaketh)
Continuing with not book-related posts, I now move to the visual delights.

On TV I watch Doctor Who – finally, but only when I manage to remember or anything other doesn’t prevent me. Which usually happens every other week, but still.. I have the worst luck with Doctor Who, but I do like what I see there. ;)

With the DVDs I had huge plans before the leave. I was telling myself I’ll watch this and that and rewatch so many of those… and here am I… Not watching.. except for sometimes.

Becket )

Bourne Ultimatum )

More DVD: I watched some s6 Buffy today – and I keep noticing stuff I’ve never paid attention before. BtVS is a source of constant amusement )

In a non-watching news - I started to get my maternity benefits. Yay!
avrelia: (Count BtVS)
I wasn't really planning to writing any essay, but as it often happens I was inspired by [livejournal.com profile] molly_may and here it is. It is rather smallish but with pictures!

So, why vampires make the best pets?  )
avrelia: (Look)
It is a joy to read my friends' list today: so many good memories, so many lovely posts!

Ten years ago I had a very different life, with no Buffy in it. Five years ago I started watching BtVS. What did it give me:
a) lots and lots of wasted time.
b) a huge jump in my English skills - BtVS was one thing that moved me to express my thoughts in English in writing and try be understood. ;)
c) It's much more difficult for me to read badly written books or watch bad tv shows. I've honed my critical skills, and now I just have to go for good stuff.
d)Lots of friends, without whom I don't want to imagine my life now. ::loves you::

I posted a review on a book I've just finished: Not about Buffy, but with a definite connection to it
avrelia: (Magic bullet - Tried to run)
First of all, A Very Happy Birthday to [livejournal.com profile] ponygirl2000!

in other news is weather looks nice (from inside) - I am sitting at home and thinking whether I should go somewhere or try to do something useful at home.

I slowly re-organizing my computer - again. it is quite annoying to go through all teh programs again, and I cannot even get tham working the same as before (on the old comp). It is amazing jusst how many customized settings I had I cannot remember now!

I have also changed the name of my LJ - it's Fortis imaginatio generat casum now.

it's Latin for "A powerful imagination generates the event" and if you think it is pretentious and not very original - you are right: it is, but it goes well with the username. :)

I am also in need of a new moodtheme, and I think I should make it myself. Except I am too lazy, and it probably won't go beyond plans - as most things. My idea is to make multi-movie/TV - whatever I can find fitting my mood. I still like some moods from the currenet theme - may be I can leave them?

a week ago I did my post in [livejournal.com profile] buffy_love - it is mostly a page-long squee

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I wanted to share my recent annoyance with you, guys. ;)

It is not exactly recent, but it came back to life after the last discussion in [livejournal.com profile] fer1213' LJ. First of all, I agreed with Fer’s post absolutely, but not with several comments to it. Some commenters expressed an opinion, popular at one part of the fandom – that is, that Buffy didn’t own all bad things she did to Spike, never apologized publicly, never was properly chastised for everything she did. So, she shouldn’t be forgiven and upheld as a proper heroine, and obviously she's not deserving of the Spike’s love.

And this attitude bugs me a lot.

I generalize here – not all these sentiments and not in this exact wording were expressed in the comments to Fer’s post, but all of them exist and I encountered them here and there.

I actually get where some of it comes from the series – Buffy doesn’t say in plain English everything we wanted her to say, but…

1.How did she not own her actions?

She admits that she behaved like a monster - and not to the Holden, but to herself, which is a huge thing. (Holden is a good therapist here – making her do all the work herself)

She admits using Spike several times – to Spike. Very good of her.

2.She doesn’t tell her friends or write about her relationship with Spike in Sunnydale Herald.
Yes. But why would she?
Why would anyone? Where does this taste for the public repentance come from? Dostoevsky? (yes, that’s right, but his characters are not exactly examples of mental health.)

I think Buffy’s relationships with friends were very true to life (mine, anyway), and no matter how much she loves them some things are not for them. She told it to whom it mattered.

3.Buffy can be terse and quippy, but eloquent in expressing her feelings she is not. Especially in the later seasons. She acts instead. And her (tiring eve for me) refrain “He has a soul now!” was the inability to express just how much it means to her. I can talk more on it, but other people said it better already. But I can't imagine a long remorseful monologue from Buffy about how she was mean and cold, and I don't want to. Her actions in s7 says a lot to me.

4.Forgiveness is not given when it is deserved, but when it is needed. (s2 Angelus episode, same time same place, the whole series, basically.)

I am ranting, hence the friendslocking this entry.

I feel better already. But sometimes I just wonder what makes people to have this need to see Buffy being chastised?
avrelia: (Wes by Tissa)
Long time ago [livejournal.com profile] elisi made a post about reasons why Spike stayed in LA and not went to look for Buffy in Europe. I read it, enjoyed, said "I have some thoughts, but I will comment later", and went on to some other stuff.

Here comes later, and my thoughts (random and disjointed) on why Spike stayed in LA (besides obvious meta-reasons) ;)

Also dedicated to Ats5 dvd release. Though I am not going to buy those dvds for a long time to come.

Spike in LA, spoilers for AtS s5 )
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I wasn’t sure whether I should post it, and then I did it – filtered and all, because sometimes I need to see my thoughts written to clear them out of my brain. There were several (or one big) kerfuffles the last summer about constructive critiques vs. hate vs. being nice, and I was thinking about what I love and don’t love and why…

And sometimes my dislikes have nothing constructive in it – I just don’t like the author’s version of the Universe or the characters. And I see no good reason to write the author about it.

Ok, here it is. I strongly dislike [livejournal.com profile] herself_nyc’s Bittersweets series. I read all up to the “Buffy in Italy” story – I don’t remember its name precisely – and then I stopped. I realized two things: 1) I really don’t like it. 2) I don’t have to torture myself then.

Why did I read it so far? Well, it is an amazing story. I have a deep respect for the skills and craft, and I admire the style and plotting – in the abstract way. Besides, every new story is an event in fandom from the first chapter with all the revisions and discussions, and I, being a sheep, wanted to know how it is going. Plus, the sex scenes are good. ;)

Also, I quite liked Herself’s “What she deserves” and “Lovingkindness” Universe.

But I don’t like Spike and Buffy there, and I don’t like what is going on with them. It is not even all the babies… it is all the mental torture, and how they don’t change forever, and other characters are pale shadows without making sense to me. They never change. Spike is always a martyr of love; Buffy is always a broken girl who doesn’t really deserve him.
And even the Victorian story, that everyone loves and which was one of the first fics I read ever, apart from amazing period details doesn’t rub well with me.

I don’t like Herself’s Spike and Herself’s Buffy. They are not bad, but they feel utterly alien and wrong to me. Recently I understood why: they belong to high tragedy; or, since their story ends reasonably well, to classical moral drama. They are deadly serious – in bliss and sorrow, in trouble and everyday life. Humour doesn’t exist in their universe.
Now, my Spike and Buffy make fun of each other – from School hard to Chosen and beyond, more over, they make fun of themselves. They mock and tease and laugh; they could be cruel and gently, and they changed. They are still changing.

So, yeah… not much sense, but I feel better.
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I am all warm and happy form the explosion of the Buffyverse gratefulness all over my friends’ list. I wasn’t sure if I should do one as well, because I am in danger of repeating everything that was listed before me, but then I decided “so what?” I tried to pick up scenes that were not talked about it yet, but it was not always possible.

Those are not necessarily scenes I love the most, or consider best scenes ever, but they stick out and made love these series and miss them once again.

My BtVS scenes' choices )

My Buffy/Spike scenes choices )

Following the better examples I played with my layout. Nothing fancy, but I changed the background picture and colours, and you can see it here and criticize me. :)
avrelia: (Default)
So, I was reading the interview with Marc Blucas here, and there was this moment:

So they did everything they could for that first half a season I was on to set me up in the right way where I could possibly be accepted, but during that time, it was very much being directed as, “We want you to just be a fly on the wall. Be wallpaper.”

Well, he did a nice wallpaper, I’d say.

They tried so hard to position it right to make Riley accepted, because I don’t know, maybe Brad Pitt could have pulled that out.

Brad Pitt as Riley Finn? I like BP just enough to see interesting possibilities in it. Brad Pitt does have the same flair of “All-American Goodness” in him – as Riley Finn is supposed to. Plus, many entertaining implications on several levels. Buffy/Brad Pitt as the most boring romance ever!

Yesterday I wasted several hours reading Tea at the Ford. Can I love the ladies more than I did before? Sure I can!

avrelia: (Default)
Ok, the Anya’s story is done and I am very proud. It was a joy and a pain to write it - picking up piece by piece from the five years of BtVS, digging up my memories, trying to look up from Anya’s perspective – outside and inside Anya. It brought my some frustrations and some discoveries. I started with the thesis that Anya’s story was an examination of what it is to be a human. This role reminds me slightly of the character of Data form Star Trek: TNG, an outsider, trying to figure out human, only different, because this is Buffyverse we are talking about.

Anya’s life is always on the background – it is more visible when she is with Xander, but other time you have to look for it. Of, course, this is Buffy’s story, not Anya’s, so this is understandable. Anya is one of the reflections of Buffy – trying to set a balance between her demon and human sides. Anya’s story seems to pretty consistent – even it its most frustrating parts. Most of her quirks are not attributed to her demon powers, but to her personality – that stays the same throughout the ages.

I was tired of Anya being presented as an innocent victim if Scoobies abuse. Yes, they weren’t especially nice to her. But were she nice? Let’s not forget that she was a murderous demon, who probably cause more death and destruction than Spike and Angel together – after any vampire can only kill one victim at the time, whereas a vengeance demon don’t have this kind of limitation. A well-developed wish can empty a country.

I think remembering that Anya was a dangerous demon, who for the most of the time didn’t feel bad about causing death to humans for the duration of twelve centuries will do her character, and her development more justice than white-washing.

Now I am going to be frustrated with the weather, volleyball, my ficathon Story (it existed only in my head so far), and the lack of comments.

Did I just say it? Sorry, I am mean.

HAve a great weekend, everybody!!!
avrelia: (Look by Tissa)
The previous part is here.

Starting after Selfless

Read more... )
avrelia: (Look by Tissa)
This thing was kicking my ass terribly. I planned to write an essay, but it turned into something else, and I have no idea by now how much sense it has.

I was too feverishly bound to finish it today, but it is getting too long, and I decided to post it now. I will post the end tomorrow. But could you please read it and tell me if it worth more time?

Read more... )
avrelia: (rain by saava)
I tried to write some other stuff, but found myself thinking of Anya, and – this thing got written. It is the first half, and the second will follow shortly, and I have no idea what it is – some kind of a character study.

The puzzle of being a human. Anya )
avrelia: (Look by Tissa)
I watched the finale yesterday, and I am still gaping for air, so I decided, instead on thoughts on topic, to post the history of my coming into the Buffyverse.
The Story of me in Buffyverse - no spoilers for the finale )

But I cannot stop without voicing my emotions on finale. Here is it spoilers for AtS 5.22. )



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